this fleeting moment
February 7th, 2005The coldness of the evening air prompted me to only catch a glimpse of what was noticeably a very clear night-time sky.
I caught the faint glimmer of the milky way galaxy as it tried to make its way past the glow of the city lights.
In moments like these I sometimes ask myself, “why am I here? What is my purpose in life?”
The alone-ness suddenly engulfs me, and it seems all too clear that although I have others whom I can lean on and share in the joys of life, I can’t help that I sometimes feel alone in this world.
As of this moment?
“All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.” —Buddha
I enjoy life but at the same time I feel a sense of duty and obligation to serve those whom I love, and who love me. To serve those who I consider my true friends.
Life has blessed me with an ability to express myself through music, not so much as a means to showcawse my talents or to hopefully become infamously rich because of them, but rather as a means to express, communicate and to share in the joy that is Music. But I am sure that many people express themselves similarly via other talents and art-forms.
If we could call this “Zen”, as an act of being totally in the moment when we do the things we do, then I can simply say that one of the important things in life is to be at one in whatever we do, and to perform/act/create/communicate to the highest degree possible… to whatever that highest level might be that is achieved.
Perhaps my philosophical meanderings leave everyone in question of what I write, but this is me trying to follow my Zen-like intuitions.
I most definitely will go with the flow and can freely express that which I am feeling at the moment.
This moment…
For we are fleeting moments in timeless space. Sparks in the night caused by the eternal bonfires of our dreams. Although we may cease to exist in this present time and space, our presence will cause ripples to be felt into the future. We are in essence our own wave spreading out through the lake. As we carry on this movement that we are a part of, this flowing sea of humanity and life.
Enlightenment… self-realization… what is that, I wonder?
Are we looking for some state-of-mind that will make everything so true?
Do I trust in whatever faith everyone else has, or do I try to go by my own instincts?
If to live is to love then I am there. If to be a human being fulfilling my destiny by raising children of my own and helping them grow, then I am there. We all must feel that there should be some purpose in life that will make us whole, and to feel that we have done our duty to our fellow human beings.
If we have shared in each other’s company then we have served our obligations.
When I was younger I thought life was long. Now I realize just how fragile and short it can be.
Once again, living in the moment becomes so much more important now. And living a good moment, one that is fully experienced and felt, is all there is because one never actually is certain what will happen at the next turn… in the next moment.
One is certain though that we have but a brief time.
One moment. One instance where we can see eternity, could be a defining point in one’s life.
If on a clear day one can see forever, then a moment like that could successfully carry us through the remainder of our lives, and help us ride this wave of life.
I am but a drop in the ocean, but at the same time I am the ocean.
