a case of writer’s block?
October 10, 2006 by randomguru
In the past month or two, I felt as though I lacked the spark that kept me on-a-roll before with regards to my writing here.
It’s as if something within me had died… that sense of wonder and amazement with the internet, my interest in online journal writing, and cyberspace in general.
Could this be burn out?
Well, it sure feels like it. The passion to write has definitely changed within me. But how do I get that feeling back?
It definitely feels like a crossroads for me. Where do I go from here…? I feel as though I have nothing else to write, but yet, a lot of things continue to happen in my life that I could write about. But do I choose not to? Or do I feel that there is nothing special enough in my life that I can write about?
I’m afraid that I might have what Keith Jarrett had… chronic fatigue syndrome… in which he was afflicted to the point where he couldn’t even sit down on the piano and play a single note. Well, now I’m practicing piano again, and I’m teaching piano as well… I have begun to enjoy playing piano again and before I hadn’t touch a keyboard in months!
Anyway, the piano issue makes me think that I have had what you might call a mild case of chronic fatigue syndrome. Because, creativity is creativity… and it can be applied to whatever it is you do, or whatever inspires you to do things that are creative in nature.
Okay, well… I CAN say that this past Sunday I was performing at a concert in front of hundreds… thousands of people in Little Italy. And perhaps I HAVE been struggling these past few months because I realised at this concert… I suddenly felt the pure joy of performing music again, of interacting at my best with my fellow musicians and especially interacting with the audience out there.
Performing “live” is a delicate balance of the interaction between the performer/artist, the audience, and the room or environment that surrounds both… it’s always a two-way street… one is dependent on the other in order for it to be a success.
Last Sunday was definitely a very good day for me. And I was exhausted suddenly afterwards, because when I got home I took a looooooooong nap…
Anyway, if Keith Jarrett can overcome his illness, then that is inspiring to me, that I can overcome whatever it is I’m experiencing right now. If, it is a case of writer’s block, or some sort of chronic fatigue syndrome that is affecting my creative abilities…
…I just need to keep going, and strive to create… to live and breathe, and feel…
well, maybe… strike that previous paragraph, for possibly sounding too… corny-esque!
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