in my mind's zen garden

Occupation: Creative Dreamer

The above photo is how I feel right now. I have my head in the clouds and I’m like a bird wanting to soar freely into the sky.

• The truth is, I’m really upset over this whole economic meltdown. It’s very upsetting to me, and at this point I don’t even want to talk about it, let alone get into the gory details.

  All I can truly say about it is that it boils down to simple words…. GREED, POWER, CONTROL, DISHONESTY…

• But, I try to keep my chin up, and my head to the skies. Which is why I love taking photos of the sky. There is something so pure about the “heavens above”. It’s a part of my daily vision that soothes me because there is no corruption up there, no deception or lies… And it will be a blue sky or a starry night, or completely gray. No matter how the sky above us looks, it is simply there and makes no pretentions whatsoever. And I find a sense of comfort and peace in that.
• I was supposed to received the movie “88 Minutes” in the mail from Blockbuster. Instead, I got “Gigi”, the classic movie version of the musical by Lerner and Loewe; starring Leslie Caron, Maurice Chevalier and Louis Jourdan.

  So, I watched it for the first time! When I was a kid I remember singing “Thank Heaven for Little Girls” in a Christmas show once. I was sort of coerced into doing that. So, from that time on I didn’t really care for the song or the movie. But overall, I liked the movie.

• My piano playing has been suffering lately. I’m feeling a bit un-inspired. So, I need to work on ways of getting that “divine inspiration” back.

  And I still can’t really afford a stage piano, and I have to turn down work which is quite sad. Plus, the one stage piano I really want (after trying out pianos in a few prominent stores) costs $2200.

  With that kind of money, one has to weigh the options. For instance, we also need a new refrigerator as well. And, possibly a new computer.

• I’m thinking about this same time last year, when I was helping care for my father-in-law who was terminally ill. It was a tough time, and obviously things haven’t been the same since. One might move on, but the feelings and the memories still linger. We miss my father-in-law very much.
• My parents are currently in The Philippines right now. They were sponsors for a niece or some relative who was getting married in Manila. They will be staying there for a little over 2 weeks. And, I wish I could go back. Despite my father-in-law’s death and funeral services, we DID enjoy our stay in The Philippines. Any time spent in other lands is always an adventure.
• Speaking of other lands, I wish I could travel again. It’s just not in the cards right now. But we might do something next weekend. We’ll see… I really wish I could travel more. And to travel and play music in faraway places is one dream of mine.
• This past weekend I performed with the “dance band” and the “flamenco band”, so there was no trio gig at the Bistro. And I truly enjoyed it. I need to keep challenging myself by continually performing in as many different musical projects as possible. It helps me stay well-rounded as a musician. I don’t want to do just one style of music. I like to mix it up and variety is the spice of life as they always say.
• So, this morning I woke up at 4am and couldn’t get back to sleep. And I ended up writing this entry, and just enjoying the quietude. And right now I can look out my window and see the crescent moon to the east. It’s a beautiful sight.

Perhaps it’s the perfect time to do yoga now…..

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